Being active is great and being creatively active is even better. Now to get over the feeling of exhaustion. Waking up a couple of hours later is such a joy especially when there is sunlight. I am not a winter person.
Anyway let’s not focus on the negative...
Having exhibited three times over the past two months I have been focussed on keeping the flow going and seeking other opportunities to be a part of. It really helps having deadlines and thinking of new pieces to create. But more importantly feeling inspired.
London is a great city to seek inspiration from and there are new developments, spaces and options to be involved in. Just this weekend alone there were more zine exhibitions, openings of galleries and others shows to visit. It really is great. Visiting various spaces always helps get the creative juices flowing.
Speaking to other women who are involved in the art/photography/publishing world is always a booster as you find out other perspectives, their views on certain issues and compare the struggles you face. It has made me realise I need to seek out a group to be a part of where I can discuss my work but also how my experiences feed into it and the struggles I face, particularly when it comes to topics such as race and ethnicity. How I self identify and what it means in a world full of labels, fitting in and if we really should. Should I care about the label? Should I care about how people perceive me?
These are issues I am going to explore in a new painting, which will be interesting as I have never done this before, made myself the subject of the work. And moreover exposing some of my emotions as that can be quite raw for an artist and exposing but I feel it is important as there is quite a lot of anxiety around this subject matter at the moment and well, making the business as a whole successful. It is hard as I battle from day to day with feeling like I am a fraud, what am I doing and what is the point. To feeling happy about exhibiting in different spaces and physically being out there a bit more. This is not new territory in terms of artists or creative people battling with these concepts. I guess that is where you have to be selfish, do what you want as it feels right and you are passionate about it and shut out the negativity in the process. Screw the haters right?
So, in addition to the painting, I have made a list of things to achieve by the end of this week. As a minimum:
- write an artist cv
- a statement
- apply to two exhibitions
- start the lookbook on indesign for the brand so I can contact people in the fashion world and start the drawings for the new painting mentioned above.
- Oh and contact some Zines to see if they would be interested in publishing some articles I have previously wrote or maybe I could write something for a new theme? We will see on that front and in terms of my list of priorities, it is not that important as I am not a writer but I am interested in exploring some thoughts on paper.
Today I will complete the CV I have started, make some progress on the statement and double check the criteria for the art work submissions.
Here is a very rough draft of the painting I am thinking of creating