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Identity, Representation and Art

Starting this brand was motivated by a number of factors, namely representation. Having experimented with numerous mediums and multiple concepts I wanted to concentrate on one core value, which was diversity. 

Flood fill colour on photoshop 

Flood fill colour on photoshop 

Previously I have written about race, my identity and growing up in a world where there were very limited faces and more importantly role models I could align myself with.  One minute I did not fit, the next I did. It has always been confusing, the notion of identity. 

The disconnection from Indian culture that is part of my mums heritage, lost through her adoption has always resonated with me. It has been a productive catalyst inspiring my creativity. 

Mark making with the brush tool in photoshop 

Mark making with the brush tool in photoshop 

Art allows for a platform, a voice to be heard through visual expression and communication. Experimenting with my favourite media - collage, mixed media and print making has been both therapeutic and exciting conceptually.

Whilst there have been a variety experiments with other concepts such as capitalism and consumerism inspired by The Beauty Myth by Naomi Wolf, which I will write about at a later date. I knew I wanted to focus on this notion of diverse, identity representation and trying to create a space to express this. 

This led up lots and lots of different experiments before I had settled on the final design, which I had written about last week. Who knows if these will turn into something? 

Water colour painting that I started and stopped as I quite liked the combination between the black and white elements in stark contrast to the colour.

Water colour painting that I started and stopped as I quite liked the combination between the black and white elements in stark contrast to the colour.

The name of the original piece has always been called Abstract Asian, which is always close to my heart and will continue to be the most important imagery and is an avenue I wish to explore more. 

 

 

 

Identity, Representation and the Self - Myself

There are many miles stones in peoples lives that leave an impression, influences who you are, along with your upbringing and heritage. 

At a fancy dress party - theme? Old ladies?

At a fancy dress party - theme? Old ladies?

The confusion of mine (growing up with my mums duel heritage and adoption) coupled with going to university, meeting people from different ethnic backgrounds and moving to Tokyo and being submerged in a completely different culture, has helped me think about my identity and process many aspects of how I view myself. And still do. Which has played out in my art work. Art is therapy as they say, as unintentional as it has been. 

The exploration has helped and given me a space in which to experiment, not only my expressive side but what it means to me on an emotional level.

Identity and viewing representations of yourself within the world in which you grow up is so important. Hence the beginning of the clothing brand. A space to bring together many concepts. 

I love my expression in this photo, so many possible captions.  

I love my expression in this photo, so many possible captions.  

The truth is at this juncture in my life I do wonder if the questions I still have about my identity and how I self identify will ever be resolved. Will I ever be at one with myself? What I do know is that I am not going to press for any immediate answers but let various processes occur and see where this journey takes me.   

For the brand I envisage it becoming more streamlined with Indian identity and representation. I would like to explore this side more and meet women who are also Indian and from a similar background to myself, to hear and share their narrative. 

This would truly be about exploring representation and identity, which is an exciting avenue, open enough for the creative path to take which ever direction it chooses and in turn be played out though my art work and subsequently the brand. 

DNA Time
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Thinking about tracking your ancestors heritage is both an exciting and intimidating experience. 

The biggest concern was if the results would confirm the information I had grown to know as the truth or flag up more questions?  

What is fascinating is the breakdown in results and the land my ancestors covered from their direction out of Africa.  

Sadly I cannot go into detail as the report has ‘wandered’ off and I need to contact the company to see if I can still have access. But what I do remember is that the Indian percentage was 33%, there was some Portuguese in there amongst other nationalities with English being the majority. Which was no surprise given my mum being half English and my birth being English too. 

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So what next? How can I find out more about more about the Indian element? Whilst it was fascinating to find out the information from the report it was equally frustrating to still be hitting a brick wall in terms of specifics. Where was my mum’s birth mother from? Which part of India? How can we find out more information without it being emotionally detrimental to my mum? 

Unpicking my identity was / is becoming more and more important.